Off to Greece he went, for approximately 12 days.. and I felt very different. Oh, skype is not available when roaming. And when I called, he'd be charged double. So yea, for 12 days we went on-and-off. My first prevention of getting too *emotionally* caught-up was that...I wasn't even there, at home, in front of the lappie to look at him thru the webbie when he was about to leave for the airport. No, I seriously couldn't take it. That's why. Knowing that the distance has already been such an obstacle, the fact that he'll be going further away, will definitely create an indirect tension, building up the pain. So I chose not to really think about it. It, not him.
Well I went out with friends almost every single day, and spent the first couple of days at home just because Hanna's friend was leaving for Nottingham. Soon after, I got myself out of the house again..all-day..back & forth..just to kill the time.
JUST-TO-KILL-THE-TIME.
Went to school w/out him, went to work w/out him, went for grocery-shopping w/out him, completed my assignments w/out him, slept at nights w/out him on the other line, and I woke up w/out hearing him too.
Only for a few times that we're lucky enough to be able to talk, provided that his credits are reloaded again & again, by asking the favour from his friend back in London..which is, another bit of complication on his side. Hmmm. And we thought, "oh, poor us.."
Dear mind, that shouldn't be the way to view any matter in the first place.
Oh, he'll be back to Kensington in two days' time. And once he does, everything will then..be different again. See what I mean?
For sure, many things have made me learn...from 11-days of my random, silent thoughts.
I heard..
The most important thing to take control over is.. your mind.
-- Easy to say.. But at rare, it is possible. Actually.
The simplest way to keep your mind off disturbance is to keep yourself occupied. Friends. Friends. Friends.
--Sometimes it works, but most probably you'll still get distracted in between.
Follow heart desires, i.e. if going for retail therapy can at least make you feel a bit better on the inside, why not?
--Well, because something is always better than nothing, so yup, it works!
Don't watch love movies; be it romcoms or sad, draggy ones when he's away.
--If it's me, yes I won't watch 'em. My heart is too fragile it could be broken anytime if triggered. It makes you long for him more than anything, right at that very moment. Which is indeed Impossible.
Sing your heart out and laugh out loud.
--It works, only if you know Where and When you should/shouldn't do it. Because somehow, it Does release your depression. Really.
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These are some of the many that I applied to my own self. It was quite a relieve to have successfully gone through the days without any breakdowns. Somehow, I'm impressed of how the little things could cause such changes in a very short term, and I hope it is always for the better. That is, to make me stronger. :)
