I KEEP FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU...

Dear Princess,

I am unbelievably lucky to have you in my life.

I think the sweetest thing that can happen to anyone is to meet that special person who makes you feel like you're living in a dream come true.
That's what this is like for me.
It's like that with every smile, every touch, every memory we make.

When almost every day we have together is the kind that you don't want to end, that's when you know the love is real, and it's when you realize what a treasure you're holding on to.

Every time we're together, just doing all the things that lovers and best friends and dreamers do, I keep falling in love with you, over and over again.

I could spend FOREVER doing this. And I hope you know how thankful I am for all the incredibly precious things, you bring into my life.

-Prince


p/s : Thank you.. *smiles*

After All...

Note: This is related to an earlier post in May 'O8.


*DEEP SIGH* when I saw 'him', AND 'her'. Unfortunately I was at work when this unwanted-'sudden rush' came to me. I tried so hard to focus on work, but end up short of quite a big amount. Blaming myself for being too nervous over this particular matter, I just couldn't help it... Memangla he's an EX.. he's history.. he's my past. Cuma... hati ni.... ntahla.. rasa....sebak sgt...
Moreover, with the fact that he actually Begged & Pleaded to be in a relationship with me again, to be mine once more, and with all those tears he shed the night before he left for M'sia, and yea, he promised to come back into my arms when he gets his fugly ass back here...only to prove that he's actually capable of living such lies.. I never thought that he's full of crap. Bullshits, to be exact. I was extremely upset, that's undeniable. I was totally down with myself, I feel unworthy. manipulated. lied to. used. And worse, I feel like I was completely fooled.

But yea...later today I had some logical senses back into my mind. I heard soft whispers telling me that it's him who doesn't deserve me, it's him who is immature (in This term), and it's him who is LOSING..

I wonder why God actually fated us to meet & love & then leave.. But now it is becoming obvious that He (up above) doesn't want me to regret whatever that has happened All these years, including everything Recent of course.. I've become a whole new person with a whole new chapter. Not to say I completely changed, but..nothing can be compared to this massive improvement I've ever had in the past 22 years of my life..
Syukur.

And yes loser, I don't hope. well at least..Not Anymore.

Hmm...."When I saw you and her so close together, with you wearing the same smile you used to have when I was the only girl in your heart, tears strolled down my cheeks...I tried to slowly breathe, I tried to be as calm as I should be, and I, accepted the fact that the other smile next to yours isn't anymore mine...and so I understand, never will it be."

Because after all..... (apparently) it was just meant to be 'a rebound relationship'... for both you & me.

Welcome, LIFE.

FINALLY FOUND...'THE' EXTRAORDINARY.


*bahagia. . .more than I can tell*

Antara Nyawa, Dunia & Khilafnya.

Aku lalu apa yang tidak kau lalu
Jalan ke hilir, berlari ke hulu
Tetapi aku masih aku

Aku ada apa yang tidak kau mahu
Kurang di sana, lebih di situ
Tetapi aku masih tetap aku

Aku rasa apa yang tidak kau tahu
Derita batinku, sihat di matamu
Tetapi aku masih lagi diriku

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Hidup aku terlalu sempurna
Lebih dari apa yang aku pinta
Dan bila aku diuji diduga
Itu tanda Tuhan cinta

Hati aku terlalu rapuh
Tetapi jiwaku tak pernah jatuh
Biar hadir segala keruh
Takkan lagi aku berkeluh..

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"Kerana aku bukan lagi aku yang dulu..."

"01.01.08 - 03.05.08"

Jangan pernah beri aku harapan andai kau sememangnya tidak yakin dengannya..

Jangan pernah beri aku sandaran andai kau sendiri terlalu lemah jiwanya..

Jangan pernah beri aku perjanjian andai kau berpura-pura..

Jangan pernah beri aku kegembiraan andai kau sanggup hancurkan segalanya..

Jangan pernah beri aku perlindungan andai kau selubunginya dengan dusta..

Jangan pernah beri aku cerita indah tentang cinta, andai keikhlasan tidak kau punya...

"...sesuatu yang pernah aku beritahu sejak dulu, sebelum kita menjadi satu. Namun kau tetap dengan kata2 kosongmu. Kau mainkan perasaanku, dan semudah itu, diriku kau tipu..."

The Colourless Rainbow ...

It's not that I give up or anything.. It's just that...I don't see the need to really opt for something that is clearly impossible, for I am sick of hoping. In a way, I choose not to be in denial, so I won't act as if there's a lot more to be done when there's actually none. I go thru life every day without doubts, but these things have truly made me weak, very deep inside. All the strength I have in me has slowly been taken. They took the best out of me. With whatever I was thrown with, I have nothing but traces of love to give. I love you, with all my soul I do. But whatever my heart feels, I should have known now, the answer to 'why' God has never made it last for me. I now understand the whole point of this emptiness.
Helpless from within, I am now, finally, independent...
To go without regrets, and to leave without your love. . .

Cuz I am Me.

Dalam hidup aku skrg ni ada 4 hubungan penting yg aku kena jaga:-

• Hubungan dgn Tuhan.
• Hubungan dgn keluarga.
• Hubungan dgn studies.
• Hubungan dgn kawan2.

Setiap hari, these are among the things that I keep on reminding myself, for motivation purposes.

• Remember that it won't take long till you finish studying cuz after this you will Never hv the chance to turn back time & u're gonna miss ur life as a student, SO KEEP FOCUSED & DO THE BEST CUZ IT'S WORTH THE EFFORT.
• Kalau nk buat apa2 pun, make sure you go all out because you Never know that there's tomorrow to prove. SO DON'T YOU EVER TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED.
• If possible, don't depend on others to make you happy, do your thing; you know what's best of you, SO FIND WAYS & TIME TO DO WHAT YOU ENJOY DOING.
• Remember that when you're depressed, cry your heart out bcuz it does make you feel better, but don't let whatever that bugs Stop you from meeting the world.
• Take time to get over frustations, but don't carry yourself low. Always remember that you've got your own standards to keep up to.
• Bila malas nak solat, remind yourself that ini je cara utk you tunjuk rs syukur pd Dia cuz He's given you more than enough. SO JGN LUPA DIA SBB KUASA SEMUANYA DLM TGN DIA.
• Kalau dlm keadaan marah, Selalu fkr balik reason dia munasabah atau tidak, And letak diri kita dlm situation org tu. If it turns out that you should, okay then. But if you think that there's more to it, just forget it. SO DON'T GET STRESSED OUT FOR SOMETHING THAT WON'T ACTUALLY MATTER THAT MUCH IN THE FUTURE.