One after Another..

It's different.

Having to take extra care from the 20th onwards, I can feel that it's a lot different now. Bout everyday-life, eating habits, daily routines, sleeping hours, health conditions, etc. Extra concern on every single aspect of life, like there's two me. Two me that I have to look after. Not to say that it's hard, but...just.. different.

Thing is, I worry more.
Which leads me to do more thinking..
And worse, of the unnecessaries.

I need to calm myself down everytime. I need my heart to beat slower each time. I need more patience to get things done. Getting it all quickly accomplished really exhausts me! Really. Moreover, with the trouble of having a good sleep, I'm always restless during the day & appear extremely lethargic during the night.

These things have been putting me under so much stress without notice. I get stressed out most of the time. And I don't want it to stay that way. Stress develops anger. I have many hearts to look after, so please, stress..just go away.

I need more rest. Mentally, especially.

Gimme a break. =(

But then again, this is life; always one after another..

Okay, fate is written.

Letihnya.

I really want a break. Urgh. Baby told me to treat my masters as a vacation..like on & off, and to enjoy it, as this is a field of my own choice anyways. But then again, he's coming for a month, in the middle of the semester, and I REALLY don't wanna be busy with homework & classes & labs OMG...i wanna have 100% of the time all to myself, with him by my side. And now, it's obviously impossible for me to do so! I know. Urgh. How to go to places when I'm fully occupied 5 days a week, and I'm pretty sure that if I hv school on the weekdays, that means I hv to work at cydus on the weekends! Hmmmmm. =(


On the other hand, mama & ayah are leaving on the 20th. Cari rumah tak dpt2 lagi. I need to move out of my current apartment by Feb 3rd. *sigh* Enough of living in the city, I thought of staying in the suburbs. Any one that's within the proximity of my new school. Oh, talking bout that, I'm actually very relieved that somehow, because of what had happened, Hanna will be studying over here with me. How awesome! God's great. I'm really, really grateful. At least now I have someone near me to depend on, a wee bit. =P

Well~ a definite yes, fate is all written & ready. And that's undeniable sama sekali.