'The true meaning of .....'

Betul tak....kalau kita sangat sayangkan seseorang, kita sanggup susah utk dia.Betul tak....kalau kita cintakan seseorang, kita akan sentiasa cuba untuk tidak menyakitinya.Betul tak....kalau kita ikhlas dgn seseorang, kita akan rasa kita ada tanggungjawab atas dirinya.
Betul tak....kalau kita rindukan seseorang, kita akan risaukan dirinya, tapi bukan sekadar dengan kata2.
Betul tak....kalau kita benar2 hargai seseorang, kita sanggup jatuh bangun bersamanya.
Betul tak....kalau kita percaya dengan seseorang, kita akan yakin dengan cintanya.
Betul tak....kalau kita jujur dengan hati kita, kita mampu bahagia.
Betul tak....kalau semua ini awak Benar2 rasa, saya takkan dibiarkan begini adanya...

I just don't know anymore.

You give me cuts on the inside, again and again, one after another........

You're killing me entirely...

You're destroying the softer part of my heart.....the place that I thought You'd belong to...

You said You're willing, but You keep coming up with all kinds of reasoning......

You're refusing to take the blame, and You never prioritize the thing that matters...

You always have choices, but You made the wrong ones...

You always have alternatives, but You picked out the selfish ones...

You always leave me holding back, behind You.. as if my tears never meant anything to You...

You never took the chance to understand me real closely, the way I thought You would...

You always express yourself more than what you're actually capable of...

and worse, You always make me believe in your lies...

You made me smile with a heart full of hope, but it never took long before You take it away with your false promises...

"You should know that I am not just anybody that You can walk all over. This way, I wish You luck in love."

Penutup Kisahku ..

Ku awali hariku dengan mendoakanmu
agar kau sihat dan bahagia di sana,
sebelum kau melupakanku lebih jauh,
sebelum kau meninggalkanku lebih jauh..
Ku tak pernah berharap kau akan merindukan keadaanku yang kau letakkan hina..
Ku hanya ingin tatkala kau melihatku bila

pun, di mana pun,
hatimu akan berkata seperti ini....
Gadis inilah yang jatuh hati padamu..
Gadis inilah yang selalu memujamu..

Akulah orang yang akan selalu menaruh harapan,
dan menuliskan cinta di atas sekeping hatimu..
Akulah orang yang akan selalu ingin menjagamu,
menikmati indahmu dari sisi gelapku..
Dan biarkan aku jadi pemujamu,
Jangan pernah hiraukan perasaan hatiku..
Tenanglah, tenang sayang..
Aku takkan sampai hati bila menyentuhmu..
Mungkin kau takkan pernah tahu
betapa mudahnya kau untuk ku kagumi..
Mungkin kau tak pernah sedar
betapa mudahnya kau untuk ku cintai..

Akulah orang yang akan selalu menyayangimu,
Akulah orang yang akan selalu memahamimu,
Akulah orang yang akan selalu melegakanmu,
Akulah orang yang akan selalu mencintaimu,

dari sisi gelapku...

Warkahku ..

Walau seterang mana sinar matahari,

Ia tetap akan hilang dalam gelap malam..

Walau seindah mana bulan purnama,

Ia tetap malap di siang hari..

Walau seunik mana pelangi berwarna,

Ia tetap akan pergi perlahan..

Walau seajaib mana hujan meteor,

Ia singgah hanya sejenak..

Walau sebesar mana sesebuah planet,

Ia tetap kabur dari pandangan..

Walau sekuat mana graviti Bumi,

Ia tetap kalah di angkasa..

Tetapi ini warkahku. . .

Maka ku ingin kau tahu...

"Walau bagaimana sekalipun keadaannya,

Aku akan tetap di sini.

Bersama… hingga akhir nafasku."

*You*

When I was lost in the darkest night,

You rescued me to the brightest light..

When I was down to the deepest ground,

You held me up to where faith is found..

When I was sinking and drowning in melancholy,

You came right here, right up to me..

How can I not consider You too special,

When You took my heart in such a way..

How can I not be amazed by You,

When it’s You who brought the sunshine to a broken smile..

And how can I not see You as a gift too precious,

When it’s You who taught me life’s most important lessons..

It came over me when I least expected..

You created a rainbow of your own, to look after me when the rain leaves me alone..

You led the feeling of love straight to where it belongs,

And all I wanna do is to cherish the wonderful You..

And now that I truly feel You in me,

I am truly blessed to have finally found You,

My dream, my soul, yes You….my life…

Origins!

Tok Mod = Malaysian Malay (Bugis)
Tok Chah = Malaysian Malay (Riau)

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Nenek = Singaporean Chinese

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Tok Ali = Indian (Malayalam)

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Nenek = Burmese

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'Astonished' -- when I was told about our origins & ancestors.
Well hey~ Many thanks to the variation of genes!

Sometimes ..

Sometimes I wish life treats me better,

Sometimes I wish it will always be fair,

Sometimes I wish I’d never have to choose,

to make decisions and to learn living in a world so cruel..

Sometimes I wish people are easily understood,

so that no one tends to be rude..

Sometimes I wish there is less time in a day,

so that no one is to be taken for granted, in any possible ways..

Sometimes I wish I was a different person..

Someone who resembles contentment,

reflects the hidden inner beauty,

doesn’t hold anything back,

and never too petrified to face any facts..

Someone who won’t cry so hard from pleading,

someone who finds that it is painless to love than to hate..

Who admires aptness but does not refuse weaknesses..

Just someone…who will never have to be in a state of denial.

And someone...to feel so much of freedom, even after countless painful trials..